Flew back home yesterday.

Nice to be back

Partner does more stupid shit

Over and over again I get hurt
Luckily my mom is taking me away for a couple of weeks for some “me” time.

I feel like my heart breaks every day
And he then says sorry and it’s supposed to make it all go away

I feel distant
And alone in my own house even though there are four of us in total.

I feel numb most of the time
Like I can’t even cry
I don’t feel like eating
Or I feel the total opposite and want to be rally reckless and get drunk.
My eyes hurt from suppressing tears all the time


Just want to sleep