I feel like I am in a bad place nowadays

Realistically I'm probably not because I'm searching for jobs and studying for school, but I'm just feeling exactly like I did in the past. Not good enough at anything at all to deserve a single job. Sure, I kinda know how to program and engineer a processor. I kinda know how to create data structures and algorithms. I kinda know how to create servers and handle data flow kinda efficiently. Yeah I kinda know how to work math well. Sure, I kinda know how to model physical systems as solvable mathematical problems. Sure I kinda know IT. But what the f!ck does it matter when it's all just "kinda"? I'm just a kid in an adult man's body getting drunk to forget about his inevitable demise 🌼🐝