I Express Myself Through Writing

Today I feel like I am desperately trying to hold on to love but it feels like it's already gone, just out of my reach. That makes very sad. I love him a lot and I really want to make things work, but he is very negative and I just find myself not wanting to be around him. He holds onto what is wrong instead of trying to find a way to make it right. If he can't let go, how can we grow as a couple. I tell him all the time about this, but he doesn't listen. He says he wants to be happy but predicates his happiness on a certain few events happening in order for him to be happy and that usually involves me behaving in some way that he finds acceptable. I know that him changing and him being happy is his choice, I know that his negativity is a result of having no control over me, and his choice. So today I am sad...