Venting or some BS

boo to all cheaters, emotionally included. just end it with your husband and set yourself free

Don't crucify yourself for being human. Anyone, male or female who is going what you are going through with no end in sight, can fall into the "other person" trap.

It's almost a survival instinct/act. So yeah, don't beat yourself up over it.

However, I'd suggest you drop the relationship for now and concentrate on you, your situation and what the positive steps are to get out.

This is about you and adding the other person in won't in the end help and may in fact makes things worse.

This is right. If you have 1 of 20 and you get 11 you have one 50/50 win and that counts for only one and then you have another one that is either 12 or 13 that counts for another 50/50 win and for the hostile on the other side to win they have 10 as one win and 9 or 8 as another win so it is 1 of 4 instead of 1 of 3 for 2 50/50 gambles won in a row and that we all have 1 of 4 and that doing a gamble where you do 1 of 1000 and your highest is 1 and you get 498 then you have an unlimited amount of 50/50 wins in a row and I went to random.org and then I did 1 of 1000 1 was my highest and I waited for it to shuffle up for a few minutes manually and then I won it on the first prob important try for the first try for the first time this way 24 hrs 30 min ago and I got 225. I discovered this 24 hrs 35 min ago. This was to get my normal American citizen rights back and get the upper advantage point over everything. It goes to 1 in 4 no matter what you do and it is unlimited and won't stop. June 18th 4:30 pm North West Arkansas time USA.
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Lil juniors like from SpongeBob.

Love your other posts, but life is serious sometimes and difficult and bullshit and full of hard, life-changing decisions.

My only advice is don't leave your marriage for someone else. Leave it for yourself.

Could you talk to your husband about it? If you're not really together, you could talk about seeing other people.

I went through something similar, did get divorced though. But I was seeing other people because we both knew it was over.

Hmmm
A lot of moving parts here.
One thing another already said here, leave the marriage for yourself… NOT for the person of escape you’re seeing..
The ‘escape’ is a rush and that rush feels amazing… but the actual emotional connection of it isn’t real..And while he’s sweet now, I think you’ve guessed well. He likely wouldn’t be able to handle whatever baggage…and yeah, I think a train wreck would likely happen out of it…
If you’re miserable as hell, staying together because the families go well together….. can you continue that?

There’s a lot of other questions here too….

Enough said.