tw ed (a vent ig)

ive had an ed since i was 13, but disordered habits since i was 12 (im 16 now). it's genuinely so tiring and i constantly feel like such a loser because i can never have a normal experience surrounding food or going out like others. it's embarrassing. everything i do, say or think of revolves around food, cals and numbers. it's something i cannot escape. ive tried recovery over 4 times and it doesn't go over 5 months before i have an episode and it all goes downhill again. i just wish i was normal sometimes lollll

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poisonouscupcake · 22-25, F

i completely understand, and im very sorry that you’re struggling. you’re not a loser for what you’re dealing with mentally, this disorder doesn’t define who you are.
i sometimes mourn what kind of person i could’ve been have i not struggled with ana-r for half my life. but it’s not good to dwell on what you could be, when who you actually are is right there. only you can fight for a better future.
stay safe🤍