I'm so sorry that this is happening to you.

I'm not exactly good at helping, or at comforting, but I do hope you know you aren't alone.
Yes, everyone says that, I know. You're probably tired of hearing it
But.. well.. goodness, I'm not good at this..
I've been there. Genuinely.
I starved myself for three months. I don't know how I survived. I just had like snacks every now and then.
It's not just the ED I'm talking about, but the part about wanting to be sick. (etc)
I don't know if this is your thought process, but mine was how I genuinely wanted something horrid to happen to me. Just so I could feel cared for and so my worries and anxieties could feel valid.
I didn't care what it was. Getting kidnapped, breaking nearly all of my bones.. I just wanted an excuse to be cared for.
I haven't exactly gotten a counsellor yet, so I can't offer oh-so-great wisdom I've heard from a professional (since I haven't)
But I can at least try to offer comfort. Even if I suck at it.

We're two screens and many miles apart, but I'm sending you a hug. (why is that kind of weird to say- just me or..?)
If you don't like hugs, then I simply offer a hand on the shoulder or just being nearby to help.

I'm not out of the woods yet, but even though we don't know each other, perhaps we can find our way out together.

I believe in you, friend. Life may be hard at times, but it will pass. It might stay with you, but you'll eventually find a way to get through it. Even if it takes a long time.
You have so much to live for. We have so much to live for. Even though humanity kinda sucks right now. (I'm so close to crashing out because of what people do sometimes ngl)

I've probably repeated things you've heard so many times, or at least a version of, but I'm genuinely just trying to offer comfort. Which I suck at. My version of comfort is just really long yapping sessions.
As you can.. probably see.

I've said all I can, really. I'm not good at all this.
I do advise you work on getting a therapist, if you aren't already.
I'm no professional, so I can't exactly help you the way you need it.

But do know that there are people who care <3