I dont want to live anymore

wowowowow this might be uhm corny but i dont eant to live anymore, sure its almost my birthday, but i had enough, i cant keep living like this, i need someone to love me (romantically or platonic) cause no one eeven love me that way, im unloveable,dumb,not worthy,ugly,too clingy, i hate myself, i fucking hate thissjehejfh and my friend kept bragging that someone loves them and im JEALOUS, then i feel disgusted of feeling jealous.