Past issues affecting me now

I've been thinking about how I can never correct people on how to pronounce my name or what my pronouns are. I think ever since grade 6 where I unintentionally said "my name is ---" to a teacher in I guess a rudeish tone? (I was feeling excited at the time and didn't notice ig??? Tone sucks). I had to stay inside at recess and make an I'm sorry card to her just for that, which is kinda stupid when you think about it, you're a grown ass woman all upset that an 11 year old said something in a slightly rude tone to you. I get that they were trying to tell me to have a better tone or smth??? But my brain doesn’t work that way, my brain is like "Oh, that was a bad thing. We shouldn't do that because that makes us horrible".

So yeah, that definitely stuck with me and now I can't correct people mis-pronouncing my name without feeling anxious or bad :) love that my name is hard to pronounce right when reading it.

And I just have to let people call me she/her cause of the same reason when I'mactually they/he. Idk there's more I wanna say but idk how to put it into words rn