Follow up to 'Things have felt off since my most recent birthday' (kinda)

I've been thinking about how I've been feeling mentally recently and how I slowly seem to be feeling worse and worse for reasons unknown. I can't talk to my parents about it since my dad already has his own mental health struggles going on and my mom will just be worried and angry cause she doesn't understand and idk how to explain it. Don't have a lot of close relationships, but I don't want to tell the ones who are since I don't want to worry or burden them with my bs. I usually don't care too much about when I feel like this since it eventually goes away soon anyways, but this has been slowly going down and down since my birthday (Augyst 31st)

This is just me rambling about dumb shit again and probably overthinking shit again, take this as you will strangers of the internet...I just want life to stop for a bit..just like pause or something