Are you really ok with nothingness after death? Because im not.

ur not alone dww, im like 2 years older than you and the thought still terrifies me. like all i have cultivated in my life will be gone just like that? My friends? My achievements? My memories? Me? Especially when im constantly reminded about it when i go outside. Some granny tripped and cracked her head open on the sidewalk right below my building a few months ago, i went past it and it filled me with dread. All i saw was a pool of blood, and her body was probably being cremated at that time. Someday ill also be like her, leaving behind only my body, and i will only live on in my friends and familys memories.. sometimes i wish there was an actual afterlife so death would feel less scary lol
for the time behind uhh you can try distracting yourself from it? What i have found helpful for me (to fall asleep before i dive into another existential crisis) is focusing solely on my breath, or counting repeatedly from 1-10, counting sheep. Or try to think of what you have to do tomorrow, what youll eat, which friend you will meet. Distract yourself with your life kinda? I know its scary but its probably the case for millions of other people, we all fade into nothingness but still go on and live our lives. Since our time is so limited its no use worrying bout it?
srry if its worded weirdly eng is not my first language

im not that religious but i feel like death has a lot to do with what you believe in. my suicidal ideations have always been passive because im so scared of being judged for a necessary sin. i do believe that theres more after death, but nothingness is terribly scary. id love for my mistakes to be erased, but itd take all the good parts too. people i love and memories i have. to be something after a mortal death while still retaining my memories would be nicer:) its just scary that i will be judged. but at least i wont be nothing

It sounds freeing. The thought of afterlife actually scares me, as well as the thought of all-powerful beings actually existing

That's why people have faith. And their Gods and beliefs dictate what the afterlife is.