I’m sorry // TW

I failed again. I was 12 days clean. 12 days down the drain. I’m so drained and I feel so empty, not even cutting works anymore. I cut, I feel and then I just feel my heart hurt more. I’m not going to live like this, I refuse. I don’t know how long it’ll take to get better but I officially have no hope anymore. My sister also saw my scars, she’s planning on telling my mother, I’m going to get screamed at again and be told how God’s going to send me to Hell. It’s so much to handle, I’m still a child.