Why does existing hurt like this?

I think I am having an episode and its been taking quite a lot of time. This feeling never leave me. I feel hurt just by exisiting and living feels like an obligation for me. With the regrets and shame with me, I suffer like this. I feel alienated because I can't reach out to friends for the fear of not being understood. The deep emotions I feel, I cant make them understand this.

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in10RjFox · MVIP

When you don't understand others emotions or deep emotions, why should they understand yours ?

Your feelings are so may be due the vagabond thoughts as you have not found a purpose or haven't let a purpose find you.

So get out and find a purpose.

umarudesu · F

@in10RjFox it is not that i dont understand other’s emotion. Well in fact i do, and I can empathize with them. That's different from what I feel, I feel different from people, I feel secluded and alienated and it does not mean i dont know or I don't find my purpose. It's a conflicting feeling.

in10RjFox · MVIP

@umarudesu what I meant is once you start attending others problem, you will start to forget yours. Like even a doctor needs another doctor for her ailment.

You have secluded yourself and alienated yourself due to your own thoughts. Common mistake that many do.

You are stagnated yourself in life and hence life is not flowing through.

Do you have a lover ?

umarudesu · F

@in10RjFox i dont...

in10RjFox · MVIP

@umarudesu so find a lover online to whom you can open up in anonymity. Get to know the person by asking questions, that way your mind gets to attend newer stuff and gets relief from attending your self.