i hate my life.

i always get compared to my sister. They think we are a perfect family but everything behind its history is just brutal. They think we are all rich, nice, kind, wealthy. Well its obviously not true. they have high expectations when it comes to family. if it was easy for me to just disappear i would have done it. but it is fear that is attacking me, telling me to always think twice before making decisions. if i cant disappear, then i will do anything just to be gone in this cruel world.