I feel sad,and not worthy even tho i am trying

Hi. I am a girl who has been through a lots of traumas in my life,especially childhood.

I have lost my father due to a car accident, people made me feel dumb,worthless and my stepdad was a narcissist.

I am trying to better myself every single day,but i am so tired of this,and i feel lost in life.

I may have progressed before,but now i feel stuck,and like all my progress faded away.

Feel free to ask further questions, I just wanted to let this out.