I wish i had a close friend

I wish i had a friend that i could talk to for hours, play games until 3am, hanout all the time. Im so jealous of my siblings, friends and cousins because they all ahve those close friends with that they can be themselves with and they talk to all the time then im jsut alone. But i ahve someone to call ym "best friend" but really we dont do any of that. Being with them is awkward still and ive known them for 6 years idk anymore im sorry