I hate the sight of blood so having my period sucks!
I went on the pill and it was horrible. I kept on bleeding and my periods were longer so I stopped taking it. My bf and I switched to condoms and that very night it broke after he came so I had to drink the morning after pill the next day. That also scrambled my hormones so now I'm my 2nd period this month.
My point is this, I hate blood so this whole thing has been hard on me psychologically. That's not factoring in the period pains and emotional fluctuations. Yesterday I cried because I realised there were less birds in our yard. Last year a huge tree in our backyard just tipped over one day. That tree was home to quite a few birds and now they're gone. I noticed the food we put out for the birds was lasting longer so I cried. The thing is there are still plenty of birds in our yard nesting in other trees and they were there singing and doing their thing. In the moment I wondered why the fuck that would make me cry. This morning when I went to pee I found out why, the ole red river.
But worst of all my youtube premium membership is canceled due to me not paying馃槀 so now I can't fall asleep to music because of the ads. It's not that bad but I am on my period so please allow me to feel some self pity馃槀. Actually scrap that, the worst is my current lack of chocolate.
On the brightside I'm way ahead on my assignments. I'm coping well with going back to university and I'm really enjoying studying psychology. Life isn't bad, it's just bloody.
My point is this, I hate blood so this whole thing has been hard on me psychologically. That's not factoring in the period pains and emotional fluctuations. Yesterday I cried because I realised there were less birds in our yard. Last year a huge tree in our backyard just tipped over one day. That tree was home to quite a few birds and now they're gone. I noticed the food we put out for the birds was lasting longer so I cried. The thing is there are still plenty of birds in our yard nesting in other trees and they were there singing and doing their thing. In the moment I wondered why the fuck that would make me cry. This morning when I went to pee I found out why, the ole red river.
But worst of all my youtube premium membership is canceled due to me not paying馃槀 so now I can't fall asleep to music because of the ads. It's not that bad but I am on my period so please allow me to feel some self pity馃槀. Actually scrap that, the worst is my current lack of chocolate.
On the brightside I'm way ahead on my assignments. I'm coping well with going back to university and I'm really enjoying studying psychology. Life isn't bad, it's just bloody.
