I'm scared of my future

Every day, every night, every second, every minute, every hour, every happy moment, every sad moment.
I think about my future, I can't stop it. It's like I'm living in the future. It's because I'm scared of failure, I don't want to fail but I still can't do anything about it. My family did so many things for me to not fail I'm SO scared of disappointing them. I have a very important exam in 2 months, I'm counting the days but I still do nothing, it's like I can't move my body, but I know what I should do. I'm so scared, and now I can't even vent to my friends, (that's why I'm on this site, don't even know where I found it.) because I know they are way more successful than me. I'm scared of them making fun of me like "Oh she's so stupid she got an.." - " "She's futureless" I hope that never happens. I just want to disappear and tell nobody about my academic life. When I hear the words "Study" or "LGS" ( --- entrance exam) I just throw anger tantrums, pull my hair, and things like that. It may be insignificant for you but it is important for me, I'm scared.

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anonymousventer · 13-15

ahhh i know how that feels!! have you tried meditation and/or setting small goals daily to study just a bit?? it works well for me, and i used to have the same problem. also, remember that even if you don't do well on your exam, that does not mean that you're useless. you have talents, skills and unique gifts that nobody else has, and if you find them or have fouund them they can be your future! i understand how tough it is to have to decide and plan ahead for your whole life, but we're humans. you're human. it's not possible to be completely perfect. also, if you see that your friends make fun of you try to confront them, since an added weight from people you love is not nice. they're supposed to support you, not bring you down. good luck for your exam, i really hope you get the mark you really need! <33

Josephine29292 · F

@anonymousventer I must thank you. I didn't know that what I needed was to hear these words. Now, I set study goals every day to be successful as you said. You really helped me. Since I study organized I feel less stress and less fear, like it's my therapy or something? Thank you for everything. I never thought that someone on the internet could help me this much. Again, thank you so much. <3

anonymousventer · 13-15

@Josephine29292 i'm so glad i helped!!! i didn't know it would help you so much but i'm genuinely really happy for you!!! good luckk <333

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