ayyy... finally something improved

i just came here to ramble about my life bc i have no one to talk about this kinda stuff. Anywho last time i posted here i said lfe hurts and yeah maybe it still does... but i now know what im doing in the near future. The future scares me a lot and i get easily anxious about it so it helped when i got help with that. Unfortunatly still i have very few friends and near non-existant social life and i do often feel lonely, but my first priority is to get my direction in life in order and friends are important mut not the top priority. i can survive alone but i hope i dont become insane or like an incel if im too lonely. i think and hope i have a quite sturdy moral compass and whatnot.

i just wanted to say that something positive has happened and that im not all doom and gloom.

one thing that bothers me is that making frineds is very hard and i think that my appearence is one part of fault. like i know that confidense and all that u need to have a good friendship. And i dont even think im that bad with people but the problem is my appearence and idk... "aura" is scary, but hopefully not creepy. like my resting face might seem like im irritated or mad by something but idk. i also think that if i just start smiling i look creepy or smth, doesnt fit my face.

thanks for reading my rambling and sry for bad grammar