The feeling of fear

I know this site is filled with a bunch of random people that don’t know me or understand me, but do you ever have that insecurity or that feeling where you can’t fully show yourself like even on this site it’s almost like I can’t speak my whole truth maybe I’m in denial in some cases. But it’s honestly frustrating to a certain degree. First you can’t tell you friends or family, now you completely can’t tell anyone and it just eats me up sometimes. I know I can speak about my problems here but there is a fear that someone will find out about this. I’m honestly tired? Like there is no point in my life, but I’m still pushing forward like I’m hoping I am going to be great, successful and finding love by the time I’m 30, but I’m genuinely concerned for myself. I don’t know where I’m going and it feels like I’m just getting left behind. Everything is going so fast but where exactly is “ my everything “ going to. I honestly wonder if others feel and think in such a complex why. Honestly my life is like when you have a test tomorrow and you haven’t studied yet , it’s last minute. I only start to worry when a problem that I had ages ago needs change now and then I rush to find a solution. But I don’t want to be like that when I need to find a job or someone to marry. Life is so difficult for everyone, but I hope that we all figure it out some day 💜💜💜