The feeling of fear

I know this site is filled with a bunch of random people that don’t know me or understand me, but do you ever have that insecurity or that feeling where you can’t fully show yourself like even on this site it’s almost like I can’t speak my whole truth maybe I’m in denial in some cases. But it’s honestly frustrating to a certain degree. First you can’t tell you friends or family, now you completely can’t tell anyone and it just eats me up sometimes. I know I can speak about my problems here but there is a fear that someone will find out about this. I’m honestly tired? Like there is no point in my life, but I’m still pushing forward like I’m hoping I am going to be great, successful and finding love by the time I’m 30, but I’m genuinely concerned for myself. I don’t know where I’m going and it feels like I’m just getting left behind. Everything is going so fast but where exactly is “ my everything “ going to. I honestly wonder if others feel and think in such a complex why. Honestly my life is like when you have a test tomorrow and you haven’t studied yet , it’s last minute. I only start to worry when a problem that I had ages ago needs change now and then I rush to find a solution. But I don’t want to be like that when I need to find a job or someone to marry. Life is so difficult for everyone, but I hope that we all figure it out some day 💜💜💜

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PoetryNEmotion · F

Do not worry about marriage. Evolve much more before you even mention that subject. This site is anonymous. How can you fear anything here? Just post. Read the comments. Say what you think. You sound lost. Are you in your twenties? That is a time for learning who you are, what you want, and how to get it. Do you have simple goals? Daily ones? Yearly ones? Start small. Left behind? Comparison is the thief of joy. Never compare. Each of us has our own life journey. So do yours. Tests? You study about a week before. Daily. Then the night before you are ready. Do not procrastinate. It causes stress and, in your case, panic. Do you like that? I think not. Get a job if you have to. Or live at home until you become more of a man. An adult. Try new things. New experiences. This is a learning time. Go learn. You will figure life out in time. Even then it will surprise you. Now go.

General · 16-17

@PoetryNEmotion I’m not in my 20s I’m still 16 and it’s just scary to post since I’m not always comfortable to share at times, I usually keep things to myself and deal with things without anyone helping me. To be honest I’m not looking for help, but I’m looking for guidance. The people in the comments have done just that. When I spoke about the tests, I was simply using it as a comparison for my life being last minute that’s all. That stress and panic is something I do enjoy, it gives me motivation to work hard to get everything done, might be weird I know but it is the way I work. I only mentioned marriage because I’ve always had the thought of it lingering sometimes. I’m a person who thinks of the future a lot and I don’t enjoy the present sometimes I know that’s an issue but I’m sure I’ll get better. I’m just serious about my future that’s why worry that I might make rash decisions that will regret. I’m sorry that my responses are a bit mixed up. I appreciate you trying to motivate me to try new things 💜

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sree251 · 41-45, M

@General You said: "I understand thank you again and I will continue working hard to reach my goals to make my future better that’s always been something I’ve followed because of my father,..."

What do you mean? What about your father?

General · 16-17

@sree251 what I meant is that my father shares a similar view with you you said fortitude is a great asset to develop to get that big break in life. My father has always said that hard work will get that big break in life. Though there is a huge difference between courage in pain, fortitude, and hard work , the way you simply phased the sentence just reminds me of my father and mother too. I’m sorry I never really made that clear💜

sree251 · 41-45, M

@General You said: "My father has always said that hard work will get that big break in life."

"Working hard" has many meanings. I don't know what your father meant by that. Your original post (OP) conveyed to me the situation you are going through now. It's tough being a teenager.

Fortitude has nothing to do with hard work. Fortitude is having faith in yourself and not losing it when the going gets tough. This is easier said than done.

JonLosAngeles66 · M

Everyone's on a different timeline. Life can be stressful. I can totally remember that dread when you had a test or assignment due and you weren't close to ready.

General · 16-17

@JonLosAngeles66 Yah ig everyone is struggling too. But I’m sure it’ll work out 💜

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