Only wish I had.

I love when mother isn't home
I love when mother leaves me alone
I love when mother stays on her phone

When mother is home I'm stressed in my room
I just hope she doesn't come soon
I will just look at the moon

Praying to be able to die
And go to my father on sky.

Because of you I wish I wasn't born.
Because of you I became torn.

Because of you I blamed myself for things that aren't my fault.
Because of you I got used to the assault.

Because of you my teenage years are gone
Because of you even now I love that I'm alone

Because of you I became like this

Because of you, dying for me is peace.

And If I showed you this, you wouldn't understand
And would only get mad

Then every blame shall be put on me
My mind can never get free,
from thinking: Is it you or is it me?

Whatever happens or whatever you do
And even if we both know truth
You will never feel guilt of what you made me go through.

Mother I wished for was never there but that's fine, cause I start to not care
I was craving for creators love that only came from what I'm capable of.

And you're right there's no meaning of this song
Because we will never get along.

Dear Lord, I just wish I was never born.