Chat,do you think I should end my life?

I have been talking to this online dude for almost a year now and then after that I got a little too comfortable with him because I told him almost everything that happened in my life.I felt like he were the only one who understood me because he shared the same problems as I did and then after that because I was so insecure that I thought he leave me that I kept asking him if you would leave me because he was leaving me on read and he said because he was getting his life together and I actually understand that so he doesn’t really have time for me and I understand that and just yesterday night I told him that We should stop talking because I knew if I was the one waiting for him it would only hurt me more.But another part of me just thinks I should still be together because he had empathy to me and shit but then after I told him I regretted telling him everything because now I feel like I talked to much and he might find me weird which he said he didn’t.just after that he unfollowed me on instagram and I am really scared to lose him.i even begged him to at least talk to me and that I didn’t care if he didn’t like me anymore (he said he had a crush on me but now he wasn’t sure if he liked me still)and I am really desperate to keep him with me coz he and I really liked each other but now it’s only *me*.




I made a ton of sacrifices to talk to him even when I shouldn’t


I cried over him and stuff and he said he also didn’t but I guess we will never know.


I got so emotionally attached to him that it was my routine to at least text him a few sentences a day and if he left me on read or didn’t check my messages (he didn’t even leave me on read he just didn’t text me for 4 days) I was crying and throwing up everywhere.


So,what should I do chat?