Chat,do you think I should end my life?

I have been talking to this online dude for almost a year now and then after that I got a little too comfortable with him because I told him almost everything that happened in my life.I felt like he were the only one who understood me because he shared the same problems as I did and then after that because I was so insecure that I thought he leave me that I kept asking him if you would leave me because he was leaving me on read and he said because he was getting his life together and I actually understand that so he doesn’t really have time for me and I understand that and just yesterday night I told him that We should stop talking because I knew if I was the one waiting for him it would only hurt me more.But another part of me just thinks I should still be together because he had empathy to me and shit but then after I told him I regretted telling him everything because now I feel like I talked to much and he might find me weird which he said he didn’t.just after that he unfollowed me on instagram and I am really scared to lose him.i even begged him to at least talk to me and that I didn’t care if he didn’t like me anymore (he said he had a crush on me but now he wasn’t sure if he liked me still)and I am really desperate to keep him with me coz he and I really liked each other but now it’s only *me*.

I made a ton of sacrifices to talk to him even when I shouldn’t

I cried over him and stuff and he said he also didn’t but I guess we will never know.

I got so emotionally attached to him that it was my routine to at least text him a few sentences a day and if he left me on read or didn’t check my messages (he didn’t even leave me on read he just didn’t text me for 4 days) I was crying and throwing up everywhere.

So,what should I do chat?

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Nirvana09 · 13-15, F

no,you shouldn't,i somewhat understand how you feel.Sacrificing things for people who can't do the same is hard and VERY frustrating but you shouldn't beat yourself up because someone is under appreciating you.You can't control that, and aren't the problem.You should never have to feel like ending your life is our only option left .i know this might not be something you'd want to hear but you could try staying off social media for a while or at least less so it can help distract you and help give you time to process stuff

pumpkinxrains · 18-21, F

it may seem like the end of the world but it won't be.

i understand that he needs to get his life together and that may cause him to be distant and ignorant THOUGH you shouldn't be the one getting his aftermath, consequences of him healing. healing is ugly and draining.

try to find peace with your self maybe whenever u feel like texting him just write it in the notes app or write it in his inbox and erase it. focus on urself , ik its hard to do so.
but try.

Shimmy · 22-25

Honey, no. Don't put yourself through more pain now. The guy made a decision, that's his loss. You're stronger than to let yourself be destroyed by him. Show him how you love yourself first, show him what he missed out on. Most importantly, take a deep breath and look outside. The world is so big and there is so many chances to find happiness in something else.

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