I wish he’d leave my mind

I pretend I don’t miss him, but I do. I pretend I’m not heartbroken by what he did but I am. Everyday I’m reminded of what he’s done and how little I actually meant to him. We lost contact and it’s really so complicated how I found out but I just really thought maybe he cared a little about my feelings. That’s just how guys are i guess. He ended up talking to a person who used to be my friend which made me sad when I found out. What’s even worse is that I’ve been numb and I can’t cry about it. I think I’ve cried all my tears.