hey, it's my first time venting here and i really need everyone's thoughts.

I'm 16 y/o and turning a Senior this s.y. I'm getting anxious everyday cause i feel like i wasn't smart enough. I really want to improve myself. I wanna be good in public speaking. I wanna be that kid who always raises their hands confidently because they know they're right. I feel the pressure inside me. It's been week since i lost my appetite and I always overthink. God. I just wish i'm naturally smart.

P.S
- English isn't my first language so i'm also really scared of getting judge bcs of my grammar. And it's kinda hard for me to construct sentences.