is it bad if i feel like this
I’m sorry for ranting over here again but well, when you’re alone with your thoughts you started thinking about all sort of things.
So I have this friend, they were diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Sometimes she would come to me to talk about her life and how’s it going for her. Every time, I would do my best to entertain and be there for her. Even though sometimes I wasn’t actually feeling like it. I also have a situation that I’ve never shared with any of my friends. I have my own issues too but I put it aside just because I thought ‘she needs you and you’re fine. you can be there for her’ when in fact, I started feeling like I’m not fine at all lately. It gets pretty tiring and mentally draining to be a listener for others when they needed to vent. I started ghosting my friends to put myself first. Just for a while. But then this particular friend, came to me again. She said she needed me and she hasn’t been okay since she got discharged from the hospital due to her anxiety. Thing is, I feel like I don’t care at all when she said that. I don’t even reply to her till now. I feel bad that I’m feeling like that. I feel like I’m a really bad person. I want to be selfish and put myself first. I feel like I’m not being a good friend.
So I have this friend, they were diagnosed with anxiety and depression. Sometimes she would come to me to talk about her life and how’s it going for her. Every time, I would do my best to entertain and be there for her. Even though sometimes I wasn’t actually feeling like it. I also have a situation that I’ve never shared with any of my friends. I have my own issues too but I put it aside just because I thought ‘she needs you and you’re fine. you can be there for her’ when in fact, I started feeling like I’m not fine at all lately. It gets pretty tiring and mentally draining to be a listener for others when they needed to vent. I started ghosting my friends to put myself first. Just for a while. But then this particular friend, came to me again. She said she needed me and she hasn’t been okay since she got discharged from the hospital due to her anxiety. Thing is, I feel like I don’t care at all when she said that. I don’t even reply to her till now. I feel bad that I’m feeling like that. I feel like I’m a really bad person. I want to be selfish and put myself first. I feel like I’m not being a good friend.
