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am i bad? im confused...

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for an 11 year old,yes. ur bad and seek help
for an 11 year old,no, but try to get therapy
no you are not.
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(TW: a lot of vent, sh, suicidal thoughts, etc)

1/28/2019: the start of it all, my birthday, I had just turned 7 on that day. I had a birthday party at a rollerskate place, I had learned about suicide and thought "What kind of dumb person would do that?!" that year was.. sad, so much happened in that whole year . including my mom being an alchoholic and when she came home she drank until she passed out on her bed. 2019 was when she really was bad, she would scream at me, and when i tried to talk back she would throw things at me or the floor. usally i would never get hit. (2020) i was in online school due to covid-19 and i would start slowly becoming depressed. my room was messy and i never had any motivation to clean it. my dad and mom i could never talk to them. i would purposely not eat because it was a punishment, it was all my fault. i would continue onto 2022. when it really got bad. i was exetremly depresed and i would scratch at my thighs and my wrists. (part two maybe..)
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Aranea1991 · 26-30, M
I got really sad reading this and i just had to write something here. You are definately not a bad person (no one is) and its also not your fault. Is there someone at your school you could talk to about your situation like a liaison teacher or similar? I would really like to offer a listening ear you could talk to if you want or need it. But given i am a grown man and you are a girl this would probably seem a bit eerie or strange so i leave that up to you of course. As my fellow previous poster already mentionend, you have to be very careful around here. Nevertheless i wish you all the best for the future and much love.
IHEARTFRIEDCHICKEN · 18-21, F
@Aranea1991 Thank you, im homeschooled so i cannot really talk to anyone/
Aranea1991 · 26-30, M
@IHEARTFRIEDCHICKEN Do you have grandparents or other family relatives or just you and your parents? Another idea would probably be to join some sporting activity. Without going into too much detail, do you live in a rather rural area or a crowded place?
IHEARTFRIEDCHICKEN · 18-21, F
@Aranea1991I might get signed up for singing or art class.
Aranea1991 · 26-30, M
@IHEARTFRIEDCHICKEN Thats pretty cool :) I hope it will be fun.