Just gonna vent a little....

I'm great at pretending Im ok, and mostly i dont pretend and just let myself be a wreck anywhere but no matter what I do it just doesn't go away, like i know Im ugly and have a below average type of face based on the standard of society and Its hard not to let that get to me but I still try to be positive about everything, but it just doesnt work, im really messed up i hate living life like this its just so tiresome and has no luster at all i know what im saying is so like messy but i just wanna say something cause I cant compose my thoughts 😭😭😭😭