i feel numb.

hi. u can call me yari. this will be my first post, so here it goes. i feel like i ruin everything. i feel numb. i listen to music every night on school days, which im doing rn. it hurts me knowing that last year on november 18, 2022, i was really depressed and almost ended my life ( im only 11.. ) i felt so hurt and felt like i wasnt enough. i always hated myself bc i wanted to be like those other girls who had self confidence with their BODY. ive always been insecured of mine, i feel FAT. i suffer with my mental health which makes me not be able to focus on school because idk what to think, i feel like im going insane when i think abt my health n school tho i try not too. my brother one time even told me that he was distgusted by me.. i had to act like it didnt affect me, but deep down it really did. and today theres this boy n we have gaved eachother more then 3 chances and theres something he doesnt know.. he is the reason i started sh.. now ever since, its been addicting, i try not to cut myself again but it feels difficult to do that. but lets get to the point, today a few hours ago or minutes, he took his anger out on me when all ive done is love him, he apologized after but it still hurted.. but thats all i wanted to say.. God bless you all and have a wonderful day today. if u read through all this, thank you for ur time it means so much to me❤🙏😔.

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SW-User

Hi, soory to hear what you are going through. It's always good to talk. Try to share how you feel with anyone who will listen.

Here is a cut and paste job from a Mental Health Forum:-

If you're feeling like you want to die it's important to tell someone.

Help and support is available right now if you need it. You do not have to struggle with difficult feelings alone.

Phone a helpline

These free helplines are there to help when you're feeling down or desperate.

You can also call these helplines for advice if you’re worried about someone else.

In the UK and Ireland, call the Samaritans on 116123.
In the US, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline on 988 or 1-800-273-8255.
In Canada, call the Suicide Prevention Service on 1.833.456.4566.
In Australia, call Lifeline on 131114.
In New Zealand, call Need to Talk on 1737 or 080017371737.
For other countries please visit this list of crisis helplines.

Useful information

The Forum's page on getting help may also be useful to you. Here is a link to it Mental Health Forum - Getting Help

Here is a link to an article on Suicidal Crisis written by one of the Admin team which you may find helpful Suicidal Crisis

Emergency help

If you are in immediate danger, please call your local emergency number (in the UK call 999, in the USA or Canada call 911, in Australia call 000 and in New Zealand call 111 or call the international emergency number of 112).

Please do seek help as soon as possible.

There ARE people who care and are willing to help. But yi must talk and seek help.

All the best

svyari9 · 16-17, F

@SW-User Thank you i appreciate it too much 💗. uhm this seems so weird to ask.. but will you be my friend??.... but thanks for helping 💗💗😔🙏

SW-User

@svyari9 Hello again. No problem in being cyberfriends. Exchanging posts. I'd suggest that you try the Forum HERE:-

https://www.mentalhealthforum.net

They are a good welcoming crowd.

All the best

svyari9 · 16-17, F

@SW-User 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭❤❤THANK YOU.

valzgore · 16-17, F

i’m so so so sorry. no one should have to go through that, you remind of my younger self and honestly no one deserves to feel such pain. i am so so sorry, if there is any way i can help please lmk!!❤️

svyari9 · 16-17, F

@valzgore thank you this means truly so much to me. i appreciate it so much. i feel like venting to someone tho.. may i vent, please..? but thank you so much for helping me. im at school rn and this comment made me feel so much better. :)

valzgore · 16-17, F

@svyari9 ofc!! i am a bit late but you still can if you want to!

Daine · 16-17, F

i wish you get away with all these one day.. we are almost the same but i am older im now 12..

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