the few seconds in the morning

every day i wake up and after a few seconds i remember what i am. who i am. and who i was. That 13 year old girl didnt deserve that. she was innocent and just wanted to be loved. she wanted her life to begin and be eventful. she wanted someone to care for her and when you opened your arms she jumped in. i understand you had a bad father but why did you have to hurt her?
why did you grab her and choke her and beat her till she was blue and dizzy. she cared for you and believed she was being taken cared for also. you made her have hope. she was excited to live and make friends. you were her motivation for things. she would stay up late at night to care for you. she would stop whatever she was doing to help you. you were the reason she got up in the morning. why she loved. why she laughed. why she cried. you ruined her oscar. you really did