I just want to vent about my life here for a moment and any suggestions or ideas are welcome

Back when I was in my twenties I didn't imagine my life would be more of a struggle at the age i am now. I used to assume life gradually got better as you got older. Everything I have tried has never worked out.. Relationships, college, higher paying jobs, saving money for a newer type of vehicle. I've been single my entire life and it seems like not a lot of people understand that my life is somewhat crummy due to not having a partner and that dual income coming in. It makes a big difference. Right now I'm driving my dad's vehicle because mine has been in the shop for 2 months, which my dad has to pay for, because even though I work full time I still live paycheck to paycheck. And I feel bad about that. The job I'm at now, I have been with them off and on for 10 years and I like it there but I'm not treated or thought of that well sometimes (Not paid all that well either considering the amount of time I've been with them plus 25 years experience) I have been looking for manager jobs for about 8 years now. Not only in my areas, but in other states. Like i said, never works out of various reasons. Now, I'm stuck in a rut and really don't want to move back in with my parents just in order to save money to get a new vehicle. I have an option to go 5 hours away to run a hotel. I would be able to live there rent free. But now, my dad told me today my car may not be able to be fixed so if I don't have a car I can't really take that job. I'm one of those people who get depressed if I didn't have a vehicle and just feels like it's the end of the world. Im not sure what to do

Queendragonfly · 31-35, F

Have you asked for a raise at your current job?

I don't have a car nor a driving license but I am used to it and I'm not especially upset. I can imagine for you, your car feels like an extension of yourself almost. A freedom you're now without.

Is there any way to lend a cheap car so you can apply for the hotel job?
Or buy a cheap old one?

swandfriends · 41-45, F

Yeah he just gave us a raise after I kept asking about it, but he's one of those that will give you 50 cents over minimum wage and think he's doing you this huge favor. My dad told me today they would just buy me a car, but I really don't want them to do that, they have helped me enough. You know, I guess I could try to lease a car if I wanted to go to that other job the next state over. Do you think I would be allowed to take it out of state?