i dont wanna grow up

That's valid. I'm almost thirty now, and at times, I still long for that feeling of being a child, protected and cared for. Cause now I'm the one doing the protecting and providing for.

But you know what? That feeling in your chest, you'll slowly start to see that even if life doesn't give you what you want, it's up to you find things and people to focus on that will make you content.

As you grow, and learn to do hard things, you'll experience more and improve and become a person you didn't think you could be. It will enable you to do more for yourself, for people you love, for God, for others.

But let me share with you a secret. Use that feeling to better the world for the people around you.
Cause the real challenge in life is doing what you have to do despite the fear. That is what people call courage.
And don't be afraid to fail. Because strength, like kindness, is something you can choose always. Moment per moment. Time and time again.

Do it. Because God gave you this life, and it is up to you what to make of it. :)

You'll figure it out over the years.