How do i deal with social anxiety

Does anyone know what may help me with my social anxiety? I can't take any meds because my mom doesn't wanna take me to a doctor or let me go myself, but i really struggle with my social anxiety. I try to tell my mom but she just tells me 'stop acting like this just Change yourself'. She's making things kinda worst for me tbh like i can't change I'm a introverted, awkward, overthinking person with anxiety,it's literally ruining my life! My grades are getting worst because i can't ask for help im scared people will think im dumb and stuff like that! Or as another example i can't talk with my friends it's just hard for me to talk with then sometimes because im just so scared they'll hate me and I'll have no friends and everyone will think im a weirdo! Which some people probably already think like the moment i talk more then 3 sentences people start asking 'omg! Why don't you never talk?' it's just annoying like do yall think i get bad grades, have bad relationships with my friends, cry myself to sleep every night because im scared to go school and talk to people? Like i just hate everybody there i wish i could just be home schooled. (sorry if my grammers bad English isn't my first language l)

Penny · 46-50, F

try thinking positive. act like they already like you and maybe they will. as far as getting help, dont be afraid. just assert yourself and your needs.

LittleMissImSoSad · 18-21

@Penny i did try to think positive and it worked for a awhile until now that's actually why i wrote this, and because of the help thing i can't really because people are telling me I'm just making it up if i tell them about my social anxiety and about how medicine would maybe help me and make my life easier. It's just hard to get help for me since in the country i life mental health isn't 'important' and no one there cares.