Am I being dramatic?

I am tired. Basic line. Everyone says it.

Being the oldest daughter, expecting to hear everyone, but also get ignored. I can't get angry with anyone, but everyone can get angry with me. I am not allowed to say "I am stressed" because it's nothing. "We have things to get stressed about. You are still young," says my parents EVERY TIME. Not allowed to cry in front of everyone, can't get angry, can't open up, otherwise, I am being a brat. Every time I am on my phone, scrolling through Instagram or Facebook to distract myself, "why are you always on your phone?" "Why aren't you studying? Your exams are here." YES BECAUSE I AM OBLIGED TO MAKE MYSELF THE PERFECT DAUGHTER YOU CAN PRESENT LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, AND I CAN NOT. THE MORE I LOOK AT MY STUDIES, THE MORE I FORGET EVERYTHING, AND THE MORE I GET DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF. I AM TIRED. I am sorry to be a disappointment, but please can I not ask for a hug every time? I'm sorry you get disappointed in me. I wish to not be like this. I am sorry to annoy you, but I also need someone here for me. I am tired of crying myself to sleep and crying alone behind the walls. Health-wise, migraines 5 times a month is dangerous. I get them every day. My periods are delayed every month. I am obese. I cannot eat much without getting full and eating a little bit. While everyone else is enjoying their teen years, I am here, stuck with myself. I am not happy being out there, but I am also not happy being here.

Sounds like it's not a problem, does it? Am I being dramatic?

idk432 · 16-17, F

as an eldest daughter i know how you feel. its not fair. we're expected to be 'the good influence' and the 'perfect child' but it's hard to be constantly trying to please everyone around you. they don't treat us the same. they don't understand the mental stress we put ourselves through to make them proud. it gets to a point where its too much and we cant take it. that's why we're stressed and exhausted. we do it all for our parents and they just don't understand that its all to please them. and yes i totally get what you're saying about how you have to be perfect so they can tell all their friends about how perfect you are. but that is so much pressure to put on a teenager. you don't need hat extra pressure, being a teen is hard enough. but please don't be disappointed in yourself. if your parents aren't proud of you for at least trying someone else will be. i promise you are not alone and you're always going to have someone who has your back; who actually understands how hard you try, how tired you are. i truly am sorry your parents don seem to understand i get it