i read some of ur comments and i think i could grasp an idea of what happened. it is totally understandable that those memories keep hauting you, bcs theyre not just memories, they're trauma. and also, no, you're not the problem. you're not the one making ur life miserable, and it is not ur fault this incident keeps bringind u down; anyone would feel the same way, so please, please, please, do not blame yourself for feeling the way you feel. my advice is please, seek a therapist if u can afford it. talking abt it with a professional, someone who actually knows how to help you and won't judge you will really help. pls be safe and know that i understand you and you're not being dramatic AT ALL. <3
