Am I being too mean?

Trigger warning: I will talk about eating disorders. If this is a topic that easily triggers you, please turn away from this post!!
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I have a few friends who found out about my eating disorders and now they’re constantly trying to make me eat. if I decline their food they’ll say something along the lines of “It’ll make me uncomfortable if you don’t eat”. Also since I don’t bring lunch they make me eat with them BUT I CANTTT. They literally won’t give up even if I cry about it (speaking from experience)

They’re just trying to look after me and all that but idk its kinda upsetting. I’m not at the stage of accepting recovery so I don’t want their help, but I feel bad because they genuinely care. I just don’t want to entangle them in my business because this is very personal to me. If I ever choose that “Ayo I want to stop this” then I’ll do that on my own. I don’t need them to babysit me.

Yet at the same time I get it. Because if something happened to me, they’d feel guilty for not doing anything about it.

UGHHHH IM HAVING AN INTERNAL CONFLICT
Long story short, I’m confused af. I do love my friends and therefore I can’t bring myself to tell them about this because I feel kinda mean tbh

Lousierosey · 16-17, F

First off. Seek help eating disorders (even though I’ve never had one) impact your life and body eventually it will escalate and turn into something that will take you to a hospital. Second your friends are very kind and loving but tell them that you require personal space. Stuff like this might require professional help and it gets into your daily life and annoys the heck out of you. Tell your friends that you need to heal slowly. Also if you don’t want to be upfront about it then try to accept a few of their food options and if they try to push you to eat more tell them you have to heal at a median pace. I heard online that eating too fast during an Ed can make you feel nauseous so be careful with that. I’m not a professional I’m just trying to help with my small nowledge and take whatever I say with a grain of salt because I don’t want to hurt anyone.