Am I being too mean?
Trigger warning: I will talk about eating disorders. If this is a topic that easily triggers you, please turn away from this post!!
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I have a few friends who found out about my eating disorders and now they’re constantly trying to make me eat. if I decline their food they’ll say something along the lines of “It’ll make me uncomfortable if you don’t eat”. Also since I don’t bring lunch they make me eat with them BUT I CANTTT. They literally won’t give up even if I cry about it (speaking from experience)
They’re just trying to look after me and all that but idk its kinda upsetting. I’m not at the stage of accepting recovery so I don’t want their help, but I feel bad because they genuinely care. I just don’t want to entangle them in my business because this is very personal to me. If I ever choose that “Ayo I want to stop this” then I’ll do that on my own. I don’t need them to babysit me.
Yet at the same time I get it. Because if something happened to me, they’d feel guilty for not doing anything about it.
UGHHHH IM HAVING AN INTERNAL CONFLICT
Long story short, I’m confused af. I do love my friends and therefore I can’t bring myself to tell them about this because I feel kinda mean tbh
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I have a few friends who found out about my eating disorders and now they’re constantly trying to make me eat. if I decline their food they’ll say something along the lines of “It’ll make me uncomfortable if you don’t eat”. Also since I don’t bring lunch they make me eat with them BUT I CANTTT. They literally won’t give up even if I cry about it (speaking from experience)
They’re just trying to look after me and all that but idk its kinda upsetting. I’m not at the stage of accepting recovery so I don’t want their help, but I feel bad because they genuinely care. I just don’t want to entangle them in my business because this is very personal to me. If I ever choose that “Ayo I want to stop this” then I’ll do that on my own. I don’t need them to babysit me.
Yet at the same time I get it. Because if something happened to me, they’d feel guilty for not doing anything about it.
UGHHHH IM HAVING AN INTERNAL CONFLICT
Long story short, I’m confused af. I do love my friends and therefore I can’t bring myself to tell them about this because I feel kinda mean tbh
22-25, F
