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Hi, So i can't trust anyone around me so i decided to post it here. Just seeking advice and something to vent on. So My parents promised me to buy me this certain stuff when they can have this money they've waited for. I was not longing for that certain stuff but because of that promise they made i expected they'll Do it because i respected them and trust them. I sacrifice many things just because of that promise. When the money is ready to release, my parents insisted me to skip school because they don't know how to handle stuff at the bank i told them i can't skip school that day because i have a activity group Performance task in English class (i'm the group leader) but they insisted and promised me. So i agree on skipping class. But after they get the money, they intentionally ignore me so i remind them the promise they made but it was too late they spend all the money IN ONE DAY!!! THEY DIDN'T KEEP THEIR PROMISE, AFTER THE BIG SACRIFICE I GODDAMN MADE FOR IT! I expected satisfaction, I recieved disappointment. So i was starting to have this "trust issue." idk abt the 'certain thing' that they promised, but WHAT I CARE ABOUT IS THEIR PROMISE!!! i respect them the most but they couldn't keep their promise. Now i'm so toxic towards my family and i'm aware. But why do they blame me, why am i the wrong one of showing my feelings, why am i the black sheep of the family NOW?!?! isn't it their mistake for not keeping their promise?? Why am i the bad one now ??? Whyyyy i want to die

Fushi · 22-25, F

I sound like a brat here, but please hear me out. This isn't he first time my family bieng this way. How can i trust someone when i can't even trust my family i hate them

Gusman · 61-69, M

@Fushi Other people are not your parents.
Trust comes from peoples actions. If your friends do as they say they will, do not lie or steal from you, do not use you then you can trust them until or unless they break that trust.

froggtongue · M

@Fushi I know you want to trust your family. Society leads us to believe that's how we should behave. But you seen their pattern. You have to trust yourself that you know how they will act. Trust yourself more now. I think if you do that, you'll be better.