Many people go through the stage of wanting to no longer be living. Including me.
Eventually coping strategies are learnt.
Wouldn't that feel great?...No, because you will not know you are no longer living. Lights out, complete darkness.
What would be great for you if you started caring about yourself. Doing stuff for yourself.
People will be devastated if you were no longer around.
The number one priority here is you.
Start doing the stuff that gives you even a small amount of pleasure and run with it.
You are worthy of life, give yourself a chance.