I want to kill myself

ever since i was young i was suicidal, nothing ever changed, my mom knew about it but never took me seriously, i tried committing multible times, last one was almost successful, i was in the hospital for the few days, she still didn't take me seriously, she never even called me when i was there, it was just my dad with me. I was told to say it was an accident and that i wasn't suicidal so I won’t to be sent to a mental hospital. I lash out on everyone around me, i scream and break things daily. I get into physical fights with my mom every single day, i was kicked out multiple times, i get so angry and i just can’t control myself. Im just so sick of it and i don’t think i can go any longer. Im seeing things that aren't there, i constantly hear someone whispering my name, when i try and sleep all i hear is this brutal yelling of my name, i cant control myself and i have no strength or will left to live, i don't know what to do with myself. I get so happy all of a sudden and do shit I shouldn’t and i think im all good and a few weeks later im fucking worse than i ever was before and its just a never ending cycle.

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th3r0n · 41-45, M

And in those days shall men seek death, and shall not find it; and shall desire to die, and death shall flee from them.
Revelation 9:6 KJV

This is one of the things spoken in the book of the end, which is Revelation at the end of the Bible

Seek God, for he is the only hope. .

Jesus is the only way to the father

In faith is found victory

froggtongue · M

@th3r0n except for those who died from not having our modern medicine knowledge.

PoetryNEmotion · F

@th3r0n Do you honestly think that religion will help someone that age? She will not care.

th3r0n · 41-45, M

@PoetryNEmotion religion? That never helped anyone, not by its modern

Obeying and trusting God and having power by his spirit, yes, that is hope and life and strength

PoetryNEmotion · F

@th3r0n Your words fall upon deaf ears.

th3r0n · 41-45, M

@PoetryNEmotion yours, maybe

Her heart will decide whether to seek truth and the only sincere hope that remains or if she will remain in darkness and despair

I have no power to persuade one whose mind is set, there may be more hope for the young than the old

PoetryNEmotion · F

@th3r0n I am spiritual. She will not listen. Has your god helped her before? I do not debate religion. I have my own.

th3r0n · 41-45, M

@PoetryNEmotion you can have your life, my God has helped me much, healed me from ADHD, cast out demons for me, saved my car from getting destroyed and the oath changed when it was sliding in the snow with nobody in it and spun perfectly to straddle the ditch despite being lowered

So many good things the God of Israel has done for me, and much power I received when I received his spirit