I’m so done with everything

I’m so done with this. I hate myself so much for not being the way I want to be. I can’t do this anymore i always try and pretend like nothing is wrong with me and I’m happy but that just means everyone will put their problems onto me i have my own problems too and I can’t handle always trying to help people with their problems when I’m too much of a coward to fucking say anything about mine
I’m so selfish it’s like I’m making everyone go “boohoo poor ray everything needs to be about ray” when I’m like this


People constantly use me for all their problems and I don’t say anything, it all brings back the feelings of my abusive ex when she would always use me as a punching bag for all her problems. I can’t help everyone and yet I still try. It’s so selfish of me but I’m so tired of giving advice and giving more advice when Ik people will never follow it and it’s just a huge waiting game to when people use me as an outlet for their negative emotions again.