I don’t know just venting.

I live with my parents, and my brother just moved in with us again about late January of this year. Keep in mind that we live in a small 2 bedroom apartment. I was forced to move out of my room into my parents room because my brother moved in with his newborn baby and my sister in law. I have no privacy my mother is a narcissistic asshole and my dad is a fucking prick. Sometimes I just want to scream and leave but then there’s a part of me that says I can’t because of how it’ll make me look to them. I just turned 20 and I feel like I’m going nowhere I wish I could just not be in the moment or here at all. I’m just done, my dad keeps telling my mom it’s a phase that my oldest brother went through as well but it’s not. I’ve been feeling like this for who knows how long. I’m independent and very antisocial I don’t agree with my mom most of the time and my dad is just a douche. I need air, I’m just waiting for that moment where I know I’m going to break and I know that I won’t be the same as I was before. I just wish I didn’t live in this state that way I wouldn’t be as tied up with my family. I hate it here. But like always I have to say oh well to everything and let it pass. Every now and then I’ll get the intrusive thought to unalive myself but I know it’s not worth it. Wouldn’t that be beautiful, an eternal sleep. I’m just tired.

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Ryannnnnn · 31-35, M Best Comment

I've just moved in with family at 30 due to economy issues and studying. I have more space than you but it's still rough sometimes.
I've found myself thinking negatively but it's just agitation, it's hard living with others when you've lived independently for years. Another of my friends who has a good job just did the same too and he's 31. You're fine.

My advice would be to save up for moving, think of something you wanna do like a bigger goal and plan the move around that.

updown2020 · 61-69, M

I am sorry you are having a rough time. It time to wake up get s job and get out of their letting your brothers family in was a bad idea. Your parents should be worried about being trophy out of the apartment for over grounding . I mean 20 years old and your sleeping with your parents. Do something about it get yourself a job this will not end well.