I dont wanna go back to school

I see my ex who i dont even want to see, hate that guy. I dont even know my classmates, no one talks to me. I have social anxiety and a low self esteem, no one seems to understand. I look ugly. I have been given the most ugliest face ever and I cant even do anything about it. Im done, im tired, everyday is a struggle. Im doing my best but im not even seen. Im like an invisible nobody. So yeah, Im tired. I just wanna sleep and never wake up.