Stressed out
I'm scared, really, really scared. Scared of becoming a bad person, scared of losing my little amount of friends, scared of dissappointing someone, scared of how i feel. Everyone says they care but they never hear me when i speak. They just say its because my friends have issues with their family and i wanna fit in.
Why can't someone see me for me? I'm tired of pretending I'm some perfect goody two shoes. I was SAd at 7, Again at 9, but nobody knows that. Why? Because nobody listens to me, ever. I feel muted by the world, I'm scared of interacting with others, i panic so easy, i can't sleep until i know everyone else in the house is asleep, and they all say im lying or faking it. Because i used to be social, i just..
I just want someone to hear that I'm not faking. I have to hide everything, i can't keep doing this. I'm a fake, I'm not me, I'm what they want me to be.
I just wish somebody would actually care about what I have to say, not what someone else does. Maybe I'm being stupid or selfish, I'm really not sure why I'm writing this, just wanted it off my chest.
Why can't someone see me for me? I'm tired of pretending I'm some perfect goody two shoes. I was SAd at 7, Again at 9, but nobody knows that. Why? Because nobody listens to me, ever. I feel muted by the world, I'm scared of interacting with others, i panic so easy, i can't sleep until i know everyone else in the house is asleep, and they all say im lying or faking it. Because i used to be social, i just..
I just want someone to hear that I'm not faking. I have to hide everything, i can't keep doing this. I'm a fake, I'm not me, I'm what they want me to be.
I just wish somebody would actually care about what I have to say, not what someone else does. Maybe I'm being stupid or selfish, I'm really not sure why I'm writing this, just wanted it off my chest.
