What should I do
I’m having a mental breakdown right now, im in highschool and I feel so worthless.. I get low scores than my friends, and I’m dumber than ever. I wasnt like this before pandemic started, I want to be my old self again the smart one. I want to make myself disappear yet the feeling of me knowing that my parents would hate it and break their heart backs me away from killing myself. But if I kill myself we wouldn’t have financial problems, and i wont have to worry about having to continue the bloodline cause my brother is here. I hope my brother takes care of the family, even though we aren’t close if I die I hope they take care. I dont know what to do right now, mom and dad is having financial problems, we are at the brink of being homeless, and they are still smiling at me. It makes me feel guilty, even if I try my best at school i still can never get into the top 10. I want to die but I cant bring myself to murder me. I want to jump on my school yet I can’t because the feeling inside me that I don’t understand won’t want me to do it, or either I just don’t wanna commit suicide at school because I’ll just create a problem there damn. But I don’t understand why mom and dad loves a failure so much, I hope I’ll make a comeback, so that my goal will be completed before I’ll be gone.
No one asked but here’s my goal :’D
-finish college
-find a job that makes me tons of money
-when i accumulated enough money for my family to live atleast a long time, that’s a time for me to rest now.
I feel kindof better knowing that I typed my problem though.
No one asked but here’s my goal :’D
-finish college
-find a job that makes me tons of money
-when i accumulated enough money for my family to live atleast a long time, that’s a time for me to rest now.
I feel kindof better knowing that I typed my problem though.