Idk life s shit

I hate life. And myself. Today, or well yesterday since it s 2 am was my bday. And fam the 2020 phase is hitting back. In 2021 a lot of ppl told me happy bday and shits while this year it felt like shit. I hate it. I hate the fact that my parents don t care how i feel. I hate the way i feel and that i feel bad for it. I hate the way i am. My crush is shit. He won t even tell me happy bday but then give me mixed signals. I have to write some hw at math but i just can t. Life literally has no meaning. In 2021 i was really shitty cuz i couldn t fill my void in life. I found out that having crushes was helpful so i did. It s very nice till they don t like u back. Not like i expected a relationship or smt but that feeling breaks me. Am i that unloveble? Is there literally nothing ab me that can make u in love? I am a hopeless romantic and id wish to date to marry. No one till i ever meet had the same mind. I hate that i can t make an impression of myself. An impression that would stample on ppl s minds and make them remember ab me. Have no f ideas idk read franz kafka he cool