Hi! I too am a 14 year old girl who just can’t with life rn .. and seeing this post helped me so much bc I couldn’t relate to smth more :,) I hope ur doing good and that life won’t treat u with to much shit to deal with :] and if u feel the urge to jump of that building go and talk to someone who u personally feel would listen or cry ur heart out to a good song bc sometimes being alive is tiring ~

ah, well thank you for opening up to the wide internet. it takes a lot of courage to post something this deep, and i want to say that im proud of you for how far you've came in your life. sure, there's a time where you feel like you're stuck, and that's how you feel now im assuming. i'm almost 17, and i can def say that life fucking sucks. truly, i know how you feel and it isn't a good feeling at all. but, i can give you advice.

with your friend situation, don't let it get to you. i know that's hard but, people are growing and changing as they have hormones. not saying that's okay for them to be excluding you, but this is a good thing for you. this means you can make better friends, and have better relationships. you have done nothing wrong, but all you can do is keep trying with your mental health. you are very deserving of love and respect, whoever doesn't show you that is garbage. throw them out to the dumpster. keep checking in with what your body needs, and stop listening to people who think they know what's best for you. only you can make decisions for yourself, not them.

if you need anything else, either reply to this, or add my snap : avamako

you're amazing, don't forget that. the hardest battles are worth fighting for. i love you <3

I'm a 14-year-old girl too, and boy is it hard. And although I am in no position to say this, if you do not want to hear any advice/opinions then you do not have to continue reading, but you have to know that you deserve much better, the people that are around you seem to be bad people. I hope that one day you can distance yourself from them. Making up with your friend then fighting again not to long after is not a good thing, I'm not going to push you to do this but it is your choice, you can slowly distance yourself from your friend, if she is not willing to be a good friend for you then she does not deserve to be your friend at all. You have done absolutely nothing wrong, all you needed was support and love and you could not get that. People tend to not understand that what they do harms others. No, it is not a phase to have su!c!dal thoughts because it is completely real, and the fact that your mother told you that it was a phase does not help at all. Adults only realize their scars when their child becomes an adult. Sorry if I sound rude but sometimes people just tick me off, how could they do this to a family member and a friend? I am very sorry that this is happening to you, I hope that one day you can find the help and comfort you need.