I surrender

I surrender superficial world. My body will never be as firm as it once was, my heart will never be as whole. I busted my ass my entire life to be a kind, giving, loyal person, and once my family died, and I needed those things, everyone scattered. Their affection diluted by my emotions. Instead of being able to cry, you asked me to be stronger. I was strong, I got stronger, but what I actually needed was tenderness and genuine caring. Something to build on. But just like with the endless tearing of muscles, life gave my heart a workout without any rest. Now I’m burnt out, stuck in survival mode and all mainstream society has to say is, get stronger aloner.

Nothing will ever break my spirit, nothing will ever stop me from loving unconditionally. If the world were to burn to the ground I would rise like a Phoenix. But in this society, where ego and greed rule with supremacy, I surrender. I belong to no one. I will not hide or stop rattling the cage. I simply accept that I will always be alone because I never compromised my morals for the sake of fitting in. I’m ugly, I’m tired, it’s no wonder no one wants me in a world of poorly constructed happiness and shallow pools of emotion 🖤