Am I stupid?

Hey I can truly EMPATHISE with you darling . I have also been a bullied person before . On one recount , I remember that I had a classmate put Liquid paper all over my pencil case and steal my gel ink pens that are so so expensive, and I ended up tearing up and getting mad at them in secret . Also on another recount , I find myself getting lonely/ lonelier these days at my school located somewhere in the world 🌍 and people tend to avoid me and I don’t know why therefore I suspect that they are isolating me and bullying me at times . And , also my parents tend to get mad at me and sometimes they shout at me and I hate it and sometimes my grandma gets physically abusive at me and I hate it . I have been bullied before too so I can understand you . And I am not ashamed anymore even after being bullied and breaking down in tears . I am a troubled Christian because I cannot feel the presence of God and I have a bad feeling about this and I still have a GOOD prayer life. Anyway are you a Christian? If you are I can consider being your friend .

You’re not stupid, or a crybaby. You have every right to feel that way while going through so much. If I were you I would be very frustrated.. you’re a very strong person.

Regarding your parents relationship, if it’s bothering you, find a good way to cope with it. There’s not much you can do to fix their relationship, nor is it your job to fix. They’re adults and they’ll figure it out eventually. The best thing you can do is have patience, and make a life of your own without making the same mistakes they did. Think of it as a lesson, it’ll pass eventually.

Bullying is something you can fix. I’m not sure how you’re getting bullied, but either way I recommend getting stronger mentally. If it’s physical then learn some self defense. Learn to stand up for yourself with confidence; have courage. And remember, being bullied is never your fault. It doesn’t matter what you look like, whether you fight back or not, whether your grades are good or bad.. there’s no reason that justifies their actions. You’re better than your bullies, they are just insecure people who want to convince themselves they’re powerful and superior.

Lastly, your current friends online are not your friends. They’re just leeching off you, and stealing the money you worked hard for. There’s no reason you should continue to stick with them. They’ll keep using you for what you have and leave you otherwise. Why would you stay with someone who has no respect for you? There are better people out there who will respect you, and treat you with the care you deserve. So, just walk away from that relationship. I’m sure you’ll find better people to be friends with. I hope this helped, good luck and stay safe!

I don't think anybody is stupid. You mention you are in school, try making an appointment with the counselor. They usually offer several sessions for free. If you are employed, lots of places offer EAP or Employee Assistance Programs, which offer free "counseling". If you are part of a church, talk to someone there.
Stop giving "friends" on the internet your money.

Good luck to you

I hope you feel better , maybe you should talk to your friends about that and find some new nice friends! Have you reported the bullies, if you do I promise you there not gonna bother you again. :)