i hate the person I am.

I can't say "I hate myself" but i just hate the way I act,look,laugh,smile,everything honetly. I don't know why but I am so insecure of myself for so many reasons and I hate myself for it. I just want to be a better person for everyone , for my parents, siblings, friends, classmates, everyone I know. I wanna be the perfect kid. I just wanna be loved by my parents and I always crave for a "i am so roud of you for doing your best" . i always hear it from some people especialy my mom but it sounds so fake. like she is so ungrateful for me and i really dont know how to change that but i just wanna be appreciated by my parents again. i wanna be my parent's little smart girl again. Like how I used to be a long while ago when I were my parent's fav child. well times change, don't they ?

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iamnikki · 31-35, F

I'm sure you're doing the best you can. Sounds like you need to see a counselor/therapist and theres nothing wrong with that. If you're still in HS, seek help from the school counselor. If you're out of school, you can still reach out to them for resources.

frr4nn · F

@iamnikki im actually younger. sadly i do not trust school counselors :"(

iamnikki · 31-35, F

@frr4nn why not? Thats what they are there fore.